the craziest things happen here...

so we had quite an eventful day on monday. my poor little boy was rushed to the hospital. so before i tell you what happened to him, let me paint a picture for you real quick.

first of all as if things arent already hard enough around this house with jason being in the hospital last week and been outta work without pay. that is enough stress on a person. really!

so anyway, the day started off pretty normal for the most part. ethan got up he was whiny and was crying. i was upstairs and asked jasmine "what the heck is wrong with your brother?" she said he was mad cause he couldnt get into his room. well i locked the door cause i painted the night before. so anyway, made breakfast, went back up to watch cartoons in my bed with the kids. ethan seemed like he may have a fever. so when my friend got to the house to drop off her kids i gave ethan some motrin. he seemed to be ok just a bit whiny and feverish. nothing too bad i thought. he was running around playing inside outside inside outside having a good time. then he wanted to sit on my lap so i snuggled him for a few and he layed his head on my shoulder and started to dose it seemed. well then like a min or 2 went by and all of the sudden, he arched his back hands went up in the air and his eyes were lookin straight up at the ceiling. he was making a gurggly sound and it was like he was choking.i said i think he is having a seizure. i started to panic and then jason took him so i could call 911. he stopped breathing for a sec, and was just so outta it. he came to a little bit and by the time i called 911 a min or 2 later they were at the house to help. emt's and ambulance firetruck and cops. it was crazy. i was hysterical, crying, scared shitless and the most terrifying thing that i have ever went through with the kids or anything i think. that was by far the hardest thing to see my kid go through. just not responding to me and limp. the emt's helped him oxygen and stuff then off to the hosp in the ambulance. thank god that they are quick and we live 1 mile from the hosp. they did a check up on him, meds, temp, temp, temp, meds, xrays, an iv, heart stickers. all that, 6 hrs in the er and he has an ear infection. they said that little kids have febrile seizures. it is a fever induced seizure. uuummmm yeah they should call it a parent heart attack seizure.i pray to god that i do not ever have to see my baby like that again. he was scared i was scared. but they said that there is only a 20% chance that it could happen again. i am hopin not at all for this family.

it was such a crazy day. i cant stop thinking about it. i want the thought of it gone outta my mind. i am sooooo exhausted from it all. i am losing sleep thinking about what i could have done different but i dont think that i could have. i love that little boy more then words and cant for the life of me figure out why he has had such a hard time with things. stitches before 2, ambulance ride before 3. i dont get it. he has had it a bit rougher then i had ever imagined for a small little man. we will get through it i know it. god is watching us and has a plan. he is good i know it. i am blessed to have him and jasmine and jason and what we have in our lives. i am not complaining, i am human though. i try not to worry but at some time it can be hard for me not to let it happen.

anyway today he seems to be doin a bit better and back to being himself for the most part. thank you god!!!! please watch over my baby and keep him safe and healthy!!!